I can still remember the exact day Willie came home and told me he was joining the military. My heart sunk into my chest, the tears began to roll and I couldn’t get out of his apartment quick enough. As I look back on that day, I realize how dramatic and selfish I was for leaving the way I did. But at that very moment, I didn’t want to think about it, talk about it or even consider it because that was not the path I had in mind when I thought of OUR future together. I remember getting into my car, driving away with tears still streaming down my face, thinking “Is this it?”, “Do we breakup?”, “Is this the life I want?”.
We were supposed to finish our degrees, get good paying jobs, get married, buy a cute house, have a few kids (maybe a dog or two). That was the future I thought I wanted. But that was not the future God had for me, which left me angry, bitter and confused (why would God blindside me like this?).
A few months went by and before I knew it, we were on our way to drop Willie off in Raleigh, the end destination being bootcamp in Great Lakes, IL (where he would spend the next 2 months).
Before we dropped him off, we ate at The Cheesecake Factory for dinner, it was the quietest dinner we’ve ever had. Dreadfully, dinner ended and I knew what came next. This was the hardest goodbye. Nothing anyone said or did could’ve prepared me for it, but I was so thankful to have had Willie’s mom there with me. I don’t think I could’ve done it by myself.
November 18, 2013 – the day he left
December 5, 2013 – got my first letter
December 25, 2013 – got a call and FaceTime
January 10, 2014 – reunited at bootcamp graduation in IL (it was -12°)
Since that day, Willie has gone to Florida for A-school, Seattle for C-school, we got engaged, married, drove cross country, moved to California, lived there for 2 years now we’re here, HAWAII of all places for the next 2, almost 3 years!
It has not been easy getting to this point and I know it won’t be any different going forward. But for those of you seeking, wondering, wishing, dreaming of what’s to come… Keep doing it and continue to make God APART OF IT ALL! I am in no way promising that you will get everything you pray for, but I am promising that your needs will be met, your voids will be filled, your heart will be changed, your mind will find peace, your body will find rest and your life will still be imperfect but in the most perfect way.
As I sit here on my couch, typing on this laptop, sharing my story with all of you… I can’t help but smile. The thing I have learned throughout this life is… It has never been nor ever will be OUR plan. It has always and will always be HIS plan.
The life we have in our heads, is the life we want. But the life the Lord has for us, is the life we NEED! The life that will mold us, teach us, love us and leave us FAR better than what we could have ever planned on our own…
God is still writing your story.
Don’t let go of your faith because of what you have yet to see…
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding. In all ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight”. -Proverbs 3:5-6